My sister mentioned yesterday that it has been awhile since I blogged. I've been really busy with school and other things and nothing really spectacular has happened except for day to day stuff. But today was different.
I have an appointment tomorrow with a Rheumatologist. I started having Lupus activity awhile back and found a hospital in Mumbai that has a Lupus clinic :) I made the appointment over a month ago but tomorrow was the earliest they could get me in. I've been pulling out my medical files and trying to get the important stuff ready for the doctor. Looking through those papers reminded me of how sick I was. Lab reports for blood work where the normal was 1-99 and mine was at 564.
When I was at my sickest, I was hospitalized several times for days or sometimes over a week at a time. When I wasn't in the hospital I was going to dozens of doctor's appointments. When I would get bad news or no news (which in my mind was bad news because they couldn't help me) I would get in my car and cry all the way home and put a Matt Redman CD in and listen to one song over and over. I had to do a series of tests in the nuclear medicine department (gallium scans) they would shoot me up with this radioactive isotope (I was pretty sure I would start glowing in the dark) and I'd lay in this scanner and I would play this song over and over.
Today I was reminded that God knows what is going on in all our lives all the time. No one at my church knows I have an appointment tomorrow. No one knows what this song means to me. and this is what they played as the closing song at church today :) The first two stanzas is what I would play on a continuous loop. God is in control whether we are going through good times or bad. He is still soveriegn whether I am sick or well. and He should be praised in all circumstances because I know He is working all things out for the Glory of His Name. I don't need to worry about how long I'll be sick or how sick I'll be. I will either get better or I will go Home to Him. Either way I win. and eventually I will get a new body in Heaven :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qp11X6LKYY
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be your name
I have an appointment tomorrow with a Rheumatologist. I started having Lupus activity awhile back and found a hospital in Mumbai that has a Lupus clinic :) I made the appointment over a month ago but tomorrow was the earliest they could get me in. I've been pulling out my medical files and trying to get the important stuff ready for the doctor. Looking through those papers reminded me of how sick I was. Lab reports for blood work where the normal was 1-99 and mine was at 564.
When I was at my sickest, I was hospitalized several times for days or sometimes over a week at a time. When I wasn't in the hospital I was going to dozens of doctor's appointments. When I would get bad news or no news (which in my mind was bad news because they couldn't help me) I would get in my car and cry all the way home and put a Matt Redman CD in and listen to one song over and over. I had to do a series of tests in the nuclear medicine department (gallium scans) they would shoot me up with this radioactive isotope (I was pretty sure I would start glowing in the dark) and I'd lay in this scanner and I would play this song over and over.
Today I was reminded that God knows what is going on in all our lives all the time. No one at my church knows I have an appointment tomorrow. No one knows what this song means to me. and this is what they played as the closing song at church today :) The first two stanzas is what I would play on a continuous loop. God is in control whether we are going through good times or bad. He is still soveriegn whether I am sick or well. and He should be praised in all circumstances because I know He is working all things out for the Glory of His Name. I don't need to worry about how long I'll be sick or how sick I'll be. I will either get better or I will go Home to Him. Either way I win. and eventually I will get a new body in Heaven :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qp11X6LKYY
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be your name
Thanks for the great reminder. Hope you are doing well & I'll be praying about your appointment.
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